The Second Time Around

It's 2am and I can't sleep, worrying too much about everything I guess. First off, Monday was my last day of work. The big "P" is closed forever. I am applying for unemployment for a while until I finish school. Which works out well since I am most likely going to have a second Ankle fusion surgery done in March.

I have been going round and round with the decision. Do I wear a brace for the rest of life? It is only a quick fix, that will relieve most of my pain, but it will not fix my problem and will probably require surgery later. Or do I opt for another surgery now? It should solve my pain issues,but there is no guarantee it will work and recovery is a long and painful process.

Many of you know that I took much longer than expected to recover from my last surgery (almost 6 months, 3 month of which I was in a cast). I never fully recovered. I still deal with pain daily, some days worse than others, but pain nonetheless. I just don't want to hurt anymore. It affects work, my social, and personal life. Tim has been wonderful, encouraging me all the way. Taking care of me. He even lets me moan and bitch (not that I don't do that anyway). My friends are so supportive. I have asked several of them for their advice and I have come to a decision. I am opting for the surgery. I need to have the surgery now, while I am still relatively young and healthy, which makes the recovery process a bit easier. If it doesn't work, at least I tried all my options. That way if I end up in a brace at least it is with no regrets.

I will be using this blog to vent, and bitch, and give updates as I go along. It may not be the fun items I post now, although I'm sure the beefcake pics will still be included. Thanks. I'll post something more fun and frivelous soon.

Happy Birthday to my big Bear!!

I just want to wish my Tim a Happy Birthday today. I Love You!!!

This should surprise nobody.....

The Multidimensional Scale of Sexuality

According to my answers, it is likely that I identify as
Homosexual
or equally,
Homosexual with some heterosexuality.

Complete set of results

Homosexual:		2
Homosexual with some heterosexuality:		2
Past heterosexual, currently homosexual:		2
Sequential bisexual:		1
Asexual:		0
Concurrent bisexual:		0
Heterosexual:		0
Heterosexual with some homosexuality:		0
Past homosexual, currently heterosexual:		0

Information

The Multidimensional Scale of Sexuality was devised by Larry Kurdek, B. Berkey and T. Perelman-Hall. It is an extension of the Klein Sexual Orientation Grid, recognising that sexual identities can change over time, people can identify with more than one sexual identity, and that asexuality is a valid sexual identity. The Multidimensional Scale of Sexuality was published in the "Journal of Homosexuality" in 1990.

Take the quiz

Burke the bigot is at it again!!!

Isaiah Washington (Dr. Burke) has said the "f" word again. What is his problem, seriously? SERIOUSLY? I am a huge fan of Grey's Anatomy, and of our gay little George (T.R. Knight), but calling someone a faggot on national TV, then denying it. What an ASSHOLE!!! Thank you Ellen for bringing this to light. In my opinion, using the "f" word is equivalent to using the "n" word. Especially if you are not Gay. I hope the producers of GA shove his bigoted ass out the door. Who needs him anyway? Seriously? Cristina is much better off without him. She could hook up with McSteamy. Better yet, have George come out on the show and hook up with him. Better still, McSteamy, McDreamy, Alex, and George all have a foursome. Now that is must see TV.Seriously!

Living in a cardboard box

That's what I'll be doing in a few weeks if I don't find a job. My store is closing at the end of the month, sucks, huh! I have sent out resume after resume, went searching at the malls today and still nothing. I am going to have a MASTER'S degree in May and will be unemployed. Maybe if the government would get off their ass and stop spending money on a war we shouldn't be in and used that money to help build a string economy, I may not be in this place. Oy Vey!!!

So if anyone in Blogland has any job recommendations, send them my way. Until then, I think we all need to see a Beefcake. tHow about an old skool hottie... Marky Mark in his Calvin Klein underwear, that will cheer us all, um, UP!!