It's 2am and I can't sleep, worrying too much about everything I guess. First off, Monday was my last day of work. The big "P" is closed forever. I am applying for unemployment for a while until I finish school. Which works out well since I am most likely going to have a second Ankle fusion surgery done in March.
I have been going round and round with the decision. Do I wear a brace for the rest of life? It is only a quick fix, that will relieve most of my pain, but it will not fix my problem and will probably require surgery later. Or do I opt for another surgery now? It should solve my pain issues,but there is no guarantee it will work and recovery is a long and painful process.
Many of you know that I took much longer than expected to recover from my last surgery (almost 6 months, 3 month of which I was in a cast). I never fully recovered. I still deal with pain daily, some days worse than others, but pain nonetheless. I just don't want to hurt anymore. It affects work, my social, and personal life. Tim has been wonderful, encouraging me all the way. Taking care of me. He even lets me moan and bitch (not that I don't do that anyway). My friends are so supportive. I have asked several of them for their advice and I have come to a decision. I am opting for the surgery. I need to have the surgery now, while I am still relatively young and healthy, which makes the recovery process a bit easier. If it doesn't work, at least I tried all my options. That way if I end up in a brace at least it is with no regrets.
I will be using this blog to vent, and bitch, and give updates as I go along. It may not be the fun items I post now, although I'm sure the beefcake pics will still be included. Thanks. I'll post something more fun and frivelous soon.
When I say cold, I mean cold. Tonight will be our first below zero of the Winter. Wind chills expected to be -20 to -40. That's enought to either freeze your nuts off or your tits off, in some cases both (right, Lothian!). Stay warm peeps!! Remember to keep you pets inside. We don't want any animals to get frostbite. Baxter and Weber hardly want to go out, not that I blame them. 
